― 読む価値がない嘆く ―

                     　　　　　  退屈な発言  　　　　　

Tsk! The days keep rolling by while I’ve only completed three replies.

I’m sorry, but I’m starting to feel like a failure to everyone.

Everyone here, my parents, friends that I don’t have, I don’t have any in real life.

I can’t reply as quick and as good as I wanted to
despite people saying my writing is amazing.

I can’t drive as safe as I want to
despite the fact that I haven’t made any accidents yet.

I can’t maintain or even start a good conversation on the one who said they love me
despite the fact that things were at least better than a certain time.

I can’t find the things I need
despite the fact I can always get new ones.

I can’t keep my thing organized
despite the fact I try to keep them as neat as possible at times.

I can’t decide on should I commute to school everyday or stay near school
despite the fact I have plenty of time to do so and ended up with commuting.

I can’t even make myself have the discipline to not spend hours on browsing a tag
despite the fact I managed to spew out three replies in these few hours.

I can’t even stay happy and not type a bunch of shit over here
despite the fact I know no one will read other than the tags I’ll put in.

I don’t know, I am feeling down
despite the fact I should be happy and excited

That I actually drove a car far enough into another state.
Furthest journey I did on car.

I’m unnecessarily dissatisfied or apathetic to things lately, how funny is that?

I think I’m slowly but definitely becoming either unnecessarily dissatisfied or apathetic to things… this is bad… but I don’t care. Life is short and ends pretty easily, so why care? Out of the whole year of commuting to school, I’ll probably get myself into a car crash.

Also, I’m fairly convinced that I am autochorrissexual.

Like totally, those lewd pics and smut threads and lemon fics turn me on but the moment they involve me other than kissing… I find it really really disgusting.

Romance is another thing though… but… *sigh*

Action speaks louder than words is all I have to say, and my words here are just null.