― 読む価値がない嘆く ―

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I just wish I can attend a Japanese high school… but it seems impossible now.

By the time I am capable of doing that, I would be at least 19, while the oldest Japanese high school students are 18. But hey, at least I am still keeping my head up since I am going to study at one of Japan’s many universities if I play my cards right.

Where would I end up?

The colder and quieter Hokkaido where I picture Ontarou living at?

The super hectic but well known Tokyo?

The traditional Kyoto?

Osaka in which their gay region is quite well known, more specifically Doyama?

Same place where I constantly imagine Skye being at which is Yokohama?

Or like Ian at Nagasaki?

There’s so many possibilities…

But for now, I’ll remain a sad piece of shit and try to sleep and be happy tomorrow since this isn’t something to be sad about. I have already lived my high school life, I can’t relive it again even if I had made all the wrong choices in that horrible school.

I… just wish I can wear their uniforms… call someone their kouhai, or call everyone I see senpai, and wander about a Japanese school, looking at the sakura trees during the spring in the school if they have one, actually enjoy a winter break with snow which I only experience once in life at Korea as a kid, but… it would kinda awkward doing some of this in an university now, wouldn’t it?

Especially with the field I’m planning to take and the amount of time we have to dedicate to our studies. The translation field would probably have a lot of foreigners like me too…

But looking back, I think I am lucky. Back then, just around 3 years ago, I’m pretty aimless and having no future to ponder about while some have already set theirs in stone by setting off to vocational schools or private schools. I’m really brash and rude too. I beat up my friends, well, not really beat them, just constantly poking their sides and being an asshole by blocking their way and horrible things like blackmailing.

Maybe I am like Kageyama when I was his age. A king in his own little world.

And then I started picking up responsibilities on my last two years of school, still skipped out tons of homeworks, but I ain’t one for that anyway.

But hey, people spread false rumors about me, so whatever.

Now, I have a dream. Studying in Japan, living in Japan, perhaps find a quiet library. Take as much Japanese landmarks as I can. Learn as many languages as I can. Share my knowledge on languages to others. Giving people the chance to understand an array of languages. Tearing down the language barrier, little by little.

Along the way, I find it pointless to keep poking people on their sides. I think I went through a personality shift. But it doesn’t matter. Keep moving forward, right?

As a sidenote, things doesn’t seem too bright for Malaysia at 2014. We’ve lost three airplanes this year with two vanished and one shot down and now two of our major airlines have their name dragged around mud. But then again, how can two planes just vanished like that? The first one is gone, even till now so this one certainly didn’t surprise me.

We also have floods and tornadoes as of late. I’m not affected, but a lot of places are greatly affected. The capital, Kuala Lumpur is surprisingly flooded despite having the famous SMART tunnel which is designed to prevent flash floods..

2014 sure is a crazy year. I hope next year is a year where we all recover from this year.

Recover from my laziness with a hectic year of school I suppose, hahaha.